Self-sufficient

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I have many shortcomings ever since I was young. Maybe it was an idea that was planted in my mind. I was the youngest among my siblings, at least 6 years apart. Whenever my dad asks me something, I’d say “I don’t know“. I didn’t say it to spite him; it was really because I didn’t know the answer to the question he asked. I was young, and lacked self-confidence. Or rather, I didn’t learn how to be or knew what it was. I was labeled as a shy person because I didn’t dared ask questions or give answers they needed to know.

Because of that, I developed a need for independence. I was afraid of asking questions, so I search for answers myself. I depended on my own abilities to seek out explanations and justifications, enough for me to complete certain tasks or whatever my random mind conjures.

The people I’m friends with or work for may misunderstand this as ‘smart‘ or ‘bright‘. But really, it’s all just a way to cover up my weakness.

Another way I do is I unconsciously surround myself with friends that are certainly not afraid to speak out their minds. They’re loud, charismatic, smart, and most importantly, funny as hell.

If I was a knight, my girl friends would symbolise my sword. They are the strongest beings I have ever met; both physically and mentally. They don’t need a man to rely on for strength. They are self-sufficient. And they protect me in ways, many I probably didn’t know they have.

Because of my shortcomings, I developed a ‘formula’ or a standard to live. I can’t always need someone else to help me if I need one. I can’t always expect that they will always be there for me. Above all, I can’t let my past experience doubt my actual abilities.

Also, because of this, I simply cannot accept it when others need help without trying it on their own. Where’s your strength? Where’s your independence? Where’s your confidence?

I’m not saying asking for help is shameful and wrong. I’m asking whether you acknowledge your abilities before giving up or not?

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There’s always someone better

No, I’m not talking about love, of significant others. I’m talking about talents, about skills, and effort.

Maybe talent isn’t real. Being born talented at something is just a way people describe someone else’s effortless success. They call it “a knack” for something, or “gifted’. Like they already possess that skill in their past lives and was brought forward in this life.

If it isn’t talent, then maybe skills? We start with no skills. Like all simulation games, we need to battle monsters, or gather wood, or fix the sink to gain certain types of skills. So skills can be gained, can be sharpened and can be mastered.

Recently I had a gathering with a bunch of friends. And we were talking about how diverse our careers are. Cook, doctor, musician, singer, architect, dentist,… And then one friend said somewhere along the lines of, “Yeah, and wedding invitations can be handwritten by (my name)!” However another friend replied, “No no no. (mentions another friend’s name).”

I guess I felt mildly offended and upset that I’m not up to the other friend’s standard. I’m not good enough. Or maybe I’m just not the go-to person for things like that. Or I’m just not seen as an artsy/crafty person. You know, when you need someone to fix your computer, you know just the person to call. Or someone to make the best cheesecake, you know which number you should dial. And if you wanted advice about anything, you’d run to that person. Which got me thinking…

What am I good for anyway?

I mentioned before in this post that I’m a person who’s half full, a jack-of-all-trades, that I wanted to be at least a bit reliable in all aspects.

But because of that, there will always be someone better than what I can do, albeit many.

Which ALSO got me thinking, if the giveaway organiser only chooses people that uses the tools they’re giving away. What if their ig accounts have no poctures related to art? What if they wanna delve into that world but have no idea what to buy or the place they live don’t have that kind of supplies? Are they crossed off the list because they were judged based on the collection of pictures in their ig account?

Out of luck

I didn’t win the giveaway!!!! 😦 (if you don’t know what I’m talking about, refer to this post)

*sigh*

I guess the Silhouette Cameo will need to wait….

On another note, I have PLENTY to do in the office now since the drawings for the company’s largest project ever undertaken. Overtime all day errday 😦 That also means that I will have little to zero time to spend on calligraphy or my zone-out-for-art-time. I don’t think I’ll have the energy to do it either.

I did enjoy my do-nothing-in-office-days even though some days I felt like banging my head on the wall out of pure boredom and frustration (I really did, but I didn’t)

But it’s crunch time now.

How to win giveaways?

I don’t know what’s up but lately there’s a lot of giveaways going on in instagram (at least with the people I follow). I have participated in a lot of giveaways but never once won or close to win anything. Different giveaways have different kinds of rules, which are usually:

  1. Like, comment something based on a question and tag a friend
  2. Like & tag 3 friends
  3. Like, tag and repost

My question is: What’s the criteria to win anyway? Does witty comments do the trick? The funnier the better? Or the ones that express the most gratitude if they win?

I’m asking this because there’s a giveaway that I really really really REALLY want to WIN.

 

Tyra J. Takahashi (@tjt1.png

The main highlight of this giveaway is the Silhouette Cameo, a machine that prints and cuts stickers and I find that this came at such a good timing! My friend and I has been planning to start a sticker business by designing, painting/colouring our own stickers for bujo planners or anyone, really. I have also browsed through the Silhouette website and I have got no money to buy such an expensive equipment, especially since we’re just starting out! But when this giveaway appeared,

DON’T YOU THINK THIS IS A SIGN??????

Oh man I REALLY WANT TO WIN THIS. I hope Tyra and Missy Briggs sees this.

Dear Tyra and Missy Briggs,

I’ll be honest. I don’t binge on every post you upload on instagram but I follow you because I saw one of your post in “search” and I really like it and I wished to see more. I have never commented on any of your photo complimenting that they are beautiful or gorgeous simply because I find my comment insignificant to the hundreds and thousands that already have. What I want to say is, if you see this (which I’m desperately hoping you will), I reallly want to win the giveaway so my friend and I can live out our dreams in starting our sticker business. Thank you thank you and thank you again.

Incredibly sincere,
Jamie @mifunarts

Skincare Review – [SKIN&LAB] Dr. Pore Tightening: Glacial Clay Facial Mask

Please note that you will see some poorly photographed pictures below. I’m still experimenting and learning how to take pictures and editing them 😀

Recently, Hermo celebrated their 5th anniversary on the 12th of June and you know what happens on anniversaries – SALES!!!

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I nabbed SO many facial masks I think I have enough supply for months! Anyway, let’s get back to SKIN&LAB.

The packaging is a clean and white design with a light slate green as the featured colour, which is also the same colour as the glacial mask itself. The product provides a spatula and a white cap to prevent air from entering due to the clay’s tendency to dry out.

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The clay is gritty due to the added ingredient of oatmeal but when you spread it on your face, it is not rough or harsh to the skin.

If you want to see the full list of ingredients and the promotional description of this product, please click here.

Now, I’m not very good at reviewing skincare products. In fact I have never done it before and didn’t want to at first but there’s something about this product that all of you must know! First things first, this product is NOT for (in my opinion):

  • highly sensitive skin
  • people that dislike any kind of sensation on their face

I think these 2 are the most important points to take note. Okay, so WHY do I say so? This is what happened to me.

I used to spatula to spread the mask all over my face. It’s quite creamy and light so it was easy to spread.

Within 5 seconds (still spreading), a cooling sensation can be felt.  That’s nice.

10 seconds – sharp tingling sensation started to happen.  Wait, what’s happening.

15 to 30 seconds – that sharp sensation isn’t tingling anymore and can be felt all over my face. In fact, it’s started to feel painful.  Ohmygodohmygodohmygod.

After my face was covered by the mask, I sat down and thinking if I should wash it off. At this time, I wasn’t in fully panicking yet. There were so many questions swirling in my head: Maybe my skin is too sensitive that’s why it hurts? or Maybe this product is supposed to do that? or Maybe I SHOULD WASH THIS DAMN MASK OFF??? I was so lost and felt cheated (it was still expensive even though it was on sale) that I bought a product that didn’t suit my skin. I scanned through the box but found nothing that mention a tingling sensation BECAUSE IT WAS ALL WRITTEN IN KOREAN. The pain was similar to when I put benzoyl peroxide on my face as a spot treatment to kill off acne BUT I PUT IT ALL OVER MY FACE WITH THIS MASK. I forced myself to stay calm, took my phone and start browsing the hell of out google, looking for reviews. I was SO GLAD I wasn’t the only one that felt the sting. Check out Jude Chao’s post with a more in-depth review.

After reading her post, then only I knew that the box did mention there will be a slight tingle and in their promotional description as well that I carelessly missed out.

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I went to Wishtrend because Hermo’s site was loading too slowly

I expected my face to be flushed red and hurt to the touch but surprisingly, my skin didn’t turn red at all (THANK GOD)! It felt moist and smooth. And when I checked the pore at my nose, it was significantly clean and clear! I’ve always thought that reviewing your skin before and after washing isn’t very objective because pores will become/look smaller each time after washing. So I checked the next morning and as the product claimed, it did minimise my pores and the red patches on my face are lesser too.

Even though all is well in hindsight, please please PLEASE take caution when products claim to give a tingling or SHARP-PAIN-LIKE feeling, especially for sensitive skin types.

I hope this not-so-in-depth review helped spread awareness, hahaha.

My skin type : sensitive, combination