Passion as Purpose

Most of us tend to find ourselves in jobs that don’t inspire us nor make us happy. We accept much less than our dreams. Before we know it, we’re so far down a path that doesn’t align nor reflect with who we are or what we had originally desired for our lives.

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“Only passions, great passions, can elevate the soul to great things.”

– Denis Diderot

What is your purpose?”

Crickets.

I find that many people tend to get totally silent when they are confronted with this question.

It makes sense. It’s pretty big question after all.

Most of us tend to find ourselves in jobs that don’t inspire us nor make us happy. We accept much less than our dreams. Before we know it, we’re so far down a path that doesn’t align nor reflect with who we are or what we had originally desired for our lives. And the reason for this is because typically we take what we can get to get by in this crazy world. We ignore passion and purpose in lieu of money and security. Not that the latter aren’t important and necessary, but the key thing to remember is that for most of us, we…

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There’s always someone better

No, I’m not talking about love, of significant others. I’m talking about talents, about skills, and effort.

Maybe talent isn’t real. Being born talented at something is just a way people describe someone else’s effortless success. They call it “a knack” for something, or “gifted’. Like they already possess that skill in their past lives and was brought forward in this life.

If it isn’t talent, then maybe skills? We start with no skills. Like all simulation games, we need to battle monsters, or gather wood, or fix the sink to gain certain types of skills. So skills can be gained, can be sharpened and can be mastered.

Recently I had a gathering with a bunch of friends. And we were talking about how diverse our careers are. Cook, doctor, musician, singer, architect, dentist,… And then one friend said somewhere along the lines of, “Yeah, and wedding invitations can be handwritten by (my name)!” However another friend replied, “No no no. (mentions another friend’s name).”

I guess I felt mildly offended and upset that I’m not up to the other friend’s standard. I’m not good enough. Or maybe I’m just not the go-to person for things like that. Or I’m just not seen as an artsy/crafty person. You know, when you need someone to fix your computer, you know just the person to call. Or someone to make the best cheesecake, you know which number you should dial. And if you wanted advice about anything, you’d run to that person. Which got me thinking…

What am I good for anyway?

I mentioned before in this post that I’m a person who’s half full, a jack-of-all-trades, that I wanted to be at least a bit reliable in all aspects.

But because of that, there will always be someone better than what I can do, albeit many.

Which ALSO got me thinking, if the giveaway organiser only chooses people that uses the tools they’re giving away. What if their ig accounts have no poctures related to art? What if they wanna delve into that world but have no idea what to buy or the place they live don’t have that kind of supplies? Are they crossed off the list because they were judged based on the collection of pictures in their ig account?

☆ Stationery Haul ☆ At the skin of a new trade

I finally got around to share my stationery haul from my trip in KL! I’ll do my best in describing and showing what I bought. So here goes!

From Stickerrific

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  • Rhodia Dot Pad (A4 size)
  • Brause Nib 361 Steno (a.k.a Blue Pumpkin)
  • Walnut Ink in Brown (40ml)
  • Speedball Oblique Pen Nib Holder
  • Post-it Note: Cat & Sushi
  • Pilot Fude-Makase Brush Pen in Black (Extra Fine)
  • Finetec Pearl Colours in Bronze

From Muji

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  • Grid pad (A6 size)
  • 0.5 tip gel pen (Black)

From Popular Bookstore

When I saw a few instagrammers using this, I knew i just HAD to get it too! I wish I could have all the colours but that impossible for my purse. And I really wanted to orange capped one but they didn’t have it 😦 So I settled for this pastel purple one which is a tight contender as well!

  • Pilot Kakuno with Medium size tip (comes with blue ink)

From Cziplee

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  • Mossery Pocket Notebook (Plain paper; 9 x 14cm; Biscuit Blue)
  • Rhodia Dot Pad (8.5 x 12.0 cm)
  • Pentel Touch Brush Sign Pen (Black, Gray, Green, Orange, Red, Blue)
  • Masking Tape (I think it’s Plum?)
  • Finetec Pearl Colours in Moon Gold

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Here are the swatches from the pens, ink and paint. I didn’t want to open the Pilot Kakuno yet so there isn’t a swatch of it here, hehe.

I really like the Pentel brush pen because of the tip. It doesn’t fray because it isn’t a typical hair brush. I don’t know the exact material so here’s my interpretation of it: a dense but flexible sponge, like makeup sponges. Incredibly versatile and fits nicely in your hands.

As for the Pilot, I don’t know if I got a slightly faulty one because the tip was kind of bent after I got it. It wasn’t bent like paper but bent like a used brush, perhaps. This brush is for smaller and detailed work since the tip is extra fine.

The ink and finetec was written with the oblique pen and blue pumpkin and I must say that it’s a wonderful nib to use! It’s flexible enough for the wrist to be more relaxed but firm enough to control the lines. The oblique pen helps eases cramps as well because of the angle at which the nib is supposed to be placed. And you get a clearer view of your work without your hand in the way. A wise investment!

Maybe, I’m advertising?

I made another account in instagram showcasing my artwork (attempts, really) because I’m too embarassed to post them in my main account. I’m not seen as an artsy person it might be a surprise to some of my friends that I choose to venture into art. And I don’t want to seem like I’m showing off (although my artwork is not as near to being complimented). Basically, I’m uncomfortable with advertising myself when I know I’m not good at whatever it is. Strangely, I feel less embarrassed when strangers find my work acceptable or nice.

So with this new account, I am able to post whatever I want without anyone knowing who the owner it. And I can repost pictures of there are any giveaways! Another reason is because WordPress has a limited space for uploading pictures so instagram will be my main platform to show what I’m currently working on or any updates of an artwork I’m doing or just random stuff.

In a nutshell, less pictures here; more pictures there.

So many hobbies, so little time

My mind have been so full of ideas lately. I don’t know if it’s a good thing. Recently, I met one of Tim’s colleague, Rozy and she’s crazy about cross stitching! Check out here instagram here and tell me you think her work is amazing too?!?!?! She’s currently trying to design her own patterns. I truly have no idea how does she have so much time to stitch, not one but MANY designs. My love for cross stitching rekindled when I saw her pictures. I used to be crazy about it too until I didn’t have time to do it anymore and grew another interest. You can see my stitches herehere and here.

And if you read my previous posts, I’ve been investing my time on watercolour painting lately. I used to hate it because I wasn’t very good at it. But now I’m seeing improvements so I’m enjoying it a little bit more.

I joined a copperplate calligraphy class 6 months ago from Salt x Paper and it is the most mind-blowing and liberating type of art. It was a live in the past while in the future kind of art.

Naturally, brush lettering came next after tasting the delicate art of cursive writing. This one took me a while to understand and practice because the soft tip was all too foreign to me especially for writing.

Bullet journaling is next on my things-to-do list too but I figured that I would have nothing to write or plan because honestly, my day job plus my daily life is a routine. There’s nothing to be reminded of, no appointments that need me present, no notes to copy. I have a book where I used to bujo but the only table or entry I drew each month was the habit tracker and my mood tracker. It was a huge waste to stop using that book because there were so many pages. So now I use it as a medium for my brain dump or quotes I like from a book/magazine, random doodles, notes or lists. It works for me because I’m not obliged to fill in my schedule everyday unlike the fixed calendar layout that draws out the entire day of the month. One of my pet peeve is leaving an area of a page that is supposed to be filled or blank pages.

And I love writing too! That’s why this blog exists. Of course I can just write an entry in my physical diary or type it into a Word document. But writing and uploading it into the web is great for edifying purposes and sharing of knowledge and interests and I enjoy that.

I love being active and being outdoors from time to time. And sometimes just staying home accompanied by a good book (So many books have been neglected). The problem is, I have 6 types of other hobbies listed above. How much time do I have left for other activities? I want to do them all!

When I’m working, I wished I had time for my hobbies. But when I’m free, I do nothing but scroll through instagram and pinterest or watch TV series I downloaded.

Which makes me wonder if my hobbies were my job, would I yearn for something else?

Do any of you experience this? Please advise me what I should do!

21/6/2017

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The chair has nothing to do with what’s written in the next page.

And to those that may have noticed, yes. The sketch is the chair from IKEA.

I write down quotes or phrases that I like in this book. In this particular entry, I was reading an article from a magazine reviewing about a book. The star below the phrase is the title of the book that is added to my wishlist.